UPDATE...

As promised, I said that I would update about my mother's response to the pregnancy! She was, let's just say, less than thrilled. It actually went a little better than I had expected. I thought she may cry or freak out. She just told me that I needed to be prepared and that I needed to take care of myself. She said that I was in for a big responsiblility and that I was an adult and that she can't say anything anymore. To be honest, not exactly the response that you want to hear from your mother when you are telling her YOU ARE PREGNANT!!! But my mother has a fancy way of making things about her. I love her, please don't think that in anyway that I am disrespecting her or being hateful. I am just venting about how she makes me feel. anyway, there was no asking of how i was feeling or anything! I know my parents are exactly happy that I am having a baby out of wedlock but still!

When I got off the phone with my mom I just cried! I just want her to be excited and start planning! I want her to give me advice and help me out! I know eventually it will get there! But it just makes me sad that they spend so much time judging and worrying about how they feel instead of enjoying their children and their grandchildren. They miss out on so much because we all feel the need to prove ourselves to them and that just makes me sad! So in the end I told her and my dad and I am relieved! Now the process of them excepting this will start and we can get past it so I can enjoy my mother while I am pregnant!

On the other hand.. My sisters are very supportive and Jennifer (my middle sis) answers all my questions. She is 13 weeks pregnant and so we are going through this together! I'm glad I have someone who can share this with me! My bestest Vanessa is also pregnant! She is almost 6 months! So we will def have babies that will be besties like us! I can't wait!

I am anxious for my doctors appt! I still have 2 weeks! So I will continue to keep you updated! Happy New Year!

God Bless,
Kells

another holiday come and gone......

Well I can't believe Christmas has come and gone and 2009 is here! I am sad that I am not going to be able to drink this New Years! I will be the DD! Whatever! But I am excited about the wonderful life that we are bringing into this world!

I had a good holiday! I missed my family because this was the first Christmas that I spent without my parents! I saw them the weekend before, but I have never spend the actual day without them! Atleast Christmas Eve! And they were down the street! Now they are 2 hours away! Anyway! We are blessed no matter what!

I told my Mom today about my pregnancy! I have so much to say about it and I will be venting on here tomorrow! Because as you know I love my mother to death but it just breaks my heart sometimes about the way things go with my parents! Well I will post tomorrow with details on the news. I love you all! Happy New Year!

God Bless,
kells

It's Christmas Eve! Yaya!!

I love Christmas! Its kind of bittersweet though! It used to be about me and now its about everyone else's kids! I mean don't get me wrong! I am so excited for the little ones that get to experience Christmas the way we do! I pray that I am able to give my children the wonderful Christmas's that my parents gave my sister's and I! They were so amazing! I had the best Christmas's as a child! Seriously they were the greatest! Best memories of my life! Now I am grown and have a baby on the way and am going last minute shopping tonight for Tereance's family! lol:) I just miss being a kid sometimes cause I miss my parents! They live far away and are getting older and things are just different! It's all apart of life! But hey we have to grow up!

I am so glad to have my baby home this year! Last year he was gone and we didn't get to spend any holidays together and I am just so glad that I have this time with him! He is just great! I love him so much! He is the cutest thing ever!

My sister in law is coming into town today! I love My Nikki!! She is great! I am really excited to see her and Q and the boys! Its been too long! I think we may go to Kerrville for New Years! That will be fun! I love the holidays! They are so bittersweet like I said though! Ugh! lol:) Well I love you all and Merry Christmas!! Be safe and God Bless!!

Love always,

Kells

(Christmas Vacation, by far the best Christmas movie ever made!)

Update!!!!

So I went to the Doctor yesterday and I am officially pregnant. I am six weeks along. My first OB appt is going to be on January 12th at 2:30pm. Iwill hear the heartbeat! I am so excited! I am going to tell my parents this weekend or next! I am still so scared! I wanted to let everyone know what was going on! We are super excited and again just praying for a healthy baby and pregnancy!

oh...and did anyone see the angel in North Carolina? That is so amazing! God is so wonderful! Thank him in everything you do!

Have a great week! 2 more days till Christmas! How exciting!
God Bless,

Kells

It's Monday! Oh Joy!

Well it is lovely Monday and here I sit at my desk! I am waiting till 9 o'clock so I can call the doctor and get my blood test results and make my first appt to hear my baby's heart beat! I can't help but pray to God that we have a healthy pregnancy the first time around! I hear so many sad stories and I know God gave us this for a reason and we will have a healthy baby! I just pray that the first trimester goes by fast! Lord I pray that you bless this family and this child! That you give us strength and watch over my body as this miracle is growing! May you bless everyone as much as you have blessed my family and may you be there for us every step of the way! You are the reason for all of this and I am so thankful for our relationship! You are an amazing God! AMEN! This is short just wanted to say a pray for our baby and for everyone else! Happy holiday!!



God Bless,

Kells

WE'RE HAVING A BABY!!!!!!!!!

OH GOD I AM SO EXCITED!!! ITS WONDERFUL! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! WELL AS SAID BEFORE I WAS REALLY LATE AND WASNT SURE. WEDNESDAY NIGHT WE TOOK A TEST AND IT WAS ONE FAINT LINE AND ONE SOLID LINE. THEN THURSDAY MORNING I TOOK ANOTHER AND 2 LINES IT WAS!!!! I WENT TO THE DOCTOR YESTERDAY TO HAVE A BLOOD TEST JUST TO MAKE SURE EVERYTHING IS OK AND TO SCHEDULE MY FIRST APPT!!! I JUST CANT BELIEVE IT! UNEXPECTED YES BUT WE ARE SO EXCITED! I AM SCARED TO TELL MY PARENTS! THAT IS GOING TO BE A MOMENT! IT MAKES ME SAD BECAUSE OTHER PEOPLE CAN TELL THEIR FAMILIES AND THEY WILL BE HAPPY AND EXCITED AND IMMEDIATELY START PLANNING!

YOU SEE...IT HAS BEEN ROUGH ON MY PARENTS BECAUSE TEREANCE AND I ARE INTERRACIAL..OBVIOUSLY....AND THAT IS NEW FOR THEM. THINGS WERE ROCKY WHEN WE FIRST STARTED DATING AND MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY PARENTS DWINDLED IN THE TIME. NOT THAT I AM PROUD OF THAT BUT I NEEDED TO DO SOME SOUL SEARCHING AND FIGURE OUT HOW I WAS GOING TO PUT THE 2 TOGETHER AND JUST BE HAPPY! WELL THIS YEAR THAT HAS HAPPENED! I HAVE MATURED AND GROWN! TEREANCE AND I ARE CRAZY ABOUT EACH OTHER AND THINGS ARE GOING SO WELL FOR US! HE ATTENDED THANKSGIVING WITH MY FAMILY AT MY SISTERS HOUSE...THIS WAS HUGE!!! AND WE ARE GOING TO MY PARENTS TOMORROW FOR CHRISTMAS WITH THEM!

TEREANCE'S FAMILY OF COURSE IS EXCITED! I AM SO GLAD THAT WE ALWAYS KNOW THAT ONE SIDE IS GOING TO BE SUPPORTIVE! SOMETIMES I JUST WISH THAT WAS MY SIDE! BUT THINGS ARE ALWAYS EASY AND PEOPLE DONT ALWAYS DO WHAT YOU WANT THEM TO! I LOVE MY FAMILY WITH ALL MY HEART! MY MOM IS SO AMAZING! I JUST WISH THAT SHE WOULD WANT THIS AS MUCH AS I DO! MAKES ME SAD!

BUT A CHILD IS A BLESSING FROM GOD! I HAVE THE BEST MAN AND HE IS GOING TO BE THE GREATEST FATHER! I AM SO PROUD OF HIM! I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THIS AND WE ARE PRAYING FOR A HEALTHY PREGNANCY AND FOR GOD TO WATCH OVER US AND GUIDE US!

WE ARE LOOKING TO MOVE IN FEBRUARY TO SOMETHING BIGGER AND BETTER! OUT DOGGIES NEED A BIG YARD AND NOW WITH THE BABY ON THE WAY THEY DEF NEED ONE! DEISEL IS A FREAK AND HE NEEDS TO RUN ALL THE TIME! LOL:) I SERIOUSLY THINK SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH THAT DOG! HE IS MISSING SOME PARTS OF HIS BRAIN! BUT NON THE LESS HE IS MY BABY FOR NOW AND LOVES HIS MAMA! I LOVE HIM TOO! JASMAINE IS GETTING OLD! LOL:) SHE IS A BITTY! BUT I LOVE HER TOO! SHE IS DADDY'S BABY GIRL!

I LIKE WRITING IN THIS BLOG! I REALLY DONT EVEN THINK ANYONE READS IT...BUT EITHER WAY ITS REALLY THERAPUTIC! I AM GLAD TO HAVE SOMEWHERE TO VENT! SO YES MAYBE I AM CRAZY FOR DOING ON THE INTERNET BUT HEY.....I GOTTA GET SOME OF THIS OFF MY CHEST!

AGAIN I AM SO ECSTATIC ABOUT MY PRECIOUS BUNDLE OF JOY! I HOPE WE HAVE A GIRL! BUT A HEALTHY BABY IS ALL I WANT! GOD IS GREAT!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND GOD BLESS,

LOVE,
KELLS

WELL THIS IS WHAT THAT IS....

So it is December 15. 2008 and I am officially a week late. I am scared and nervous and excited. This is nothing short of a blessing from God if I am going to have a baby. I am really scared to tell my mother because Tereance and I arent legally married yet. We are going to get married next year. This is the man I will be with forever! No question! I dont want to rush and get married because we are pregnant! We are going to get married because we are soul mates! I know my mom is going to FREAK OUT! I haven't found out for sure yet! But a week late? anyway! I just needed to vent because I am excited and scared and nervous all at the sametime! Tereance is nervous and excited! This is just crazy! I will keep you all posted if anyone even reads this blog! lol:) We shall know in a few weeks for sure!

So I Am Excited and Irritated at The Same Time.......

Ok, so we are supposed to be getting a new truck today and I am really excited! But I want to say that it really sucks that you work your ass off for something and then when you get paid because you are in a higher tax bracket you get crazy amounts of taxes taken out! This is just ridiculous!!! For one week I worked 52 hours! wahoo....WRONG!! They taxed my check 300.00!! for one week! I will never see that money! I will be lucky if my income tax return is 1500.00! I am so irritated! It sucks that the more money you make the more they take! I work my ass off and there are people who do nothing and collect free money all day! Just pisses me off! I am paying for those people to collect free money all day! The world is really jacked up! It's better not to even work! ugh! and forget making what your salary really is! cause the taxes are gonna take you down to a hole lot less! Whatever! I know I am going off, but come on! Unless you have kids you are paying for people to sit on their ASS! Yes there are the few that really need help! But I know more than a few who are fine and capable of working and choose not too because they are lazy! So that just makes me wanna cry because I would love to sit on my ass and get paid! Shoot! MUST BE NICE! Whatever I am done going off! I just needed to vent! I feel better!

On a lighter note.....lol
Tereance and I gave our dogs a bath last night! They are too funny! Then we went and has dinner at a friends house! Steak and Potatoes! Yummy! We really didn't do anything exciting! I was pooped! These crazy hours at the office and no sleep is really killing me! But I love my job and so we gotta do what we gotta do! Tereance has been on vacation this past week and goes back to work tomorrow so he will feel my pain! lol:) He works just as crazy hours! But I don't really have anything exciting to talk about! Thanks for reading if you do!

God Bless,
Kells

OMG!

I can't for the life of me figure out how to make this cute! so if anyone reads this please email me and tell me how to make my blog decoratively cute! Its really frustrating me!

Anyway, So it's Monday and I so don't want to be working! I haven't had a day off in a week! We are trying to get a truck for Tereance, and we are supposed to go sign the papers and pick it up tomorrow! I pray that everything goes smoothley because you know how buying a car can be nasty! They scam you and blah blah blah! But I know God is watching over us and we will get it!

I put up my Christmas Tree this weekend! I am so proud of it! I can't wait to go get some more decorations! I love Christmas! Did I say I didn't want to be at work? UGH! My life is pretty boring! Hopefully I can figure out this DAMN BLOG! and post some pics and stuff! Until the next one!

God Bless,

Kells