So I am now almost 30 weeks pregnant and let me just tell you that my hormones have completely gone bazerk!!!!! I laugh, cry, scream, sulk, and all of the above. You name the emotion, I am giving out examples of it! I am most of the time MAD! I can't stand the way people drive. I want to get out of the car and knock on their window, and when they roll it down......I WANT TO SLAP THEM!! I invision it all the time! SERIOUSLY! Every morning I talk to my mom on the phone while we drive to work and I am constantly bitching about North Texas Drivers! COME ON PEOPLE!!! STEP ON THE DAMN GAS!! (you see my frustration). Tereance gets on my last nerve half of the time because he doesn't understand what it's like to be a blimp, and he really doesn't offer much help. Don't get me wrong, if I need him to help me do something he does it. But I have to ask. I hope one day he will just offer it up on his own! We'll see!
I am always checking my blog daily! I read Jenn's blog about baby Jude every day! I am addicted! Today I followed one of the blogs that she follows for a little girl names Maddie. I am devistated for this mother! I can only imagine what she is going through! As I was reading this blog through tear filled eyes, I was just thinking about my life, and my baby girl. I think about what type of life she will have and how she will be. I think about the things that I take for granted and the issues that I have during this pregnancy, which are far from health issues. I think that instead of me always worrying about dumb things, I should be so blessed and thankful that I am healthy and that my baby is healthy! You never know what can happen in life! Tomorrow is not promised! Here one day, gone the next! I am so happy to be pregnant and I know that we are going to be fine! But you just can't help but to be grateful that you haven't had any issues and that you more than likely will not. Life is so scary! Being an adult is so scary! Becoming a mother is so scary, and yet sooo exciting!
I just pray that these mother's that go through these tragic life experiences, or who lose their child, or who have to watch their child be in pain, are given the strength to realize how special they are for being chosen to have this life! It takes a special woman to be strong for that child. These blogs that I read just touch my heart! So more power to all of you! May God give you strength, and your familes strength! May you see all the good that you do! Your are truely beautfiul people! I am truely inspired by you!
I am really excited about my baby girl!!! I can't wait to get her nursery set up, and to wash all of her clothes! (i just wanted to state this) LOL:) Have a great week everyone!!
God Bless,
Kells
